'Final'ly...get it?

Assalamu'alaikum,
so I just finihshed my final exam today...well, actually it was yesterday, but today there was still Malaysian University Examination Tests (MUET la!!)...so, it still counts on...hahaha.....you know what, for the first time in my life I felt really regretful, frustuated and not quite satisfied with my exams...usually, during my school periods, i'm not that kind of a kid who scores a lot in class or what, nor am I a studious or a HARDWORKING type of a person...I'd rather play a round and probably waste my time doing ridicilous things. Maybe when the exams are just around the corner, at THAT time, suddenly I'd struggle and study last minute and Wa~laa! I get "colourful" results...very nice...complete...all grades are in...hahaha..well, honestly saying, during those PRECIUOS times, I didn't feel guilty or frustuated after answering the quetions that was given...well, I knew I wouldn't get good marks because of what I have done from before...

But present, in JMC, in a new world to me, just after the final exams, like I said before, I really felt bad, guilty, frustuated, darn not satisfied and all those depressful feelings that you can have...arghh!!! You see, I started changing my life style by putting a new hope in myself....I became hardworking, studious and very determineded....In class (tutorials), I'd score the most in quizs, always finish doing tutorials (kerja rumah la tu!!) given by the teachers, always being infront (meant by mencapub selalu...hahaha!!!), sometimes teachs my other friends about things they don't uncerstand and quite proudful, scored in my Mid-sem exam (UPS 1)....I didn't went boastful during thsoe times, because what came in my mind was that I thought, I just can't afford to see another failure in my life after SPM...I knew I wasn't that clever enough to compare with those who got 10 A's or above, so thats why I changed and struggled hard...sincerely, I helped my friends with all that I have....but sometimes, when god doesn't aprove us to get what we want, it just won't come....like in my finals, in all the papers I took, I can put an average of 60% answered and only 40% was confidently answered....it was really hard......man...it really made me speechless (I mean typeless....hahahaha!! I'm typing here aren't I?)...but like a friend of mine said, "as long as the result hasn't come out yet, don't stop praying and make a lot of duas to Him. You've strived already, and now, just tawakal and hope for the best!"....thanks a lot dude...It really meant well...hmm...well, what he says is quite right....I have a faith, and I must keep in my faith until the end....so, right now, maybe loking back won't change anything, so I'll guess I'll just look foward for a new semester a new hope....
Thats it folks...see ya!!
WasSaLaM.....