Since I entered Johor Matriculation College (JMC/KMJ), many things have changed from myself and to my environment that I used to live in Hidayah. During those times, I may be one of those students who would rebel on the school "government" on some policies with my own "party" and thus effects me not being tarbiyyah completedly with Islamic education. Sometimes, when there is students discussion sessions, I would just sit there and "cover my eyes and ears" to show my protest. As time goes on until the final year of my period, I saw that I was just being ridiclous in my own ways. This made me think forever...I saw that I'm a person that would not survive the "outside world of hidayah" because I was lacking a lot of tarbiyyah in myself. So, the last thing that I thought of before stepping outside, was just to uphold my bonds with my dear friends whom I've been together through thick and thin. I had to do this at the last minunte schedule because it was already to late for me to learn from the begining of the tarbiyyah. So, with that bond that I uphold, I created a thin wall around me just to protect me from any harm. Alhamdulillah, in KMJ, I participated in liqa' and started again but in my own ways where I still sociallise with people around me and try to do da'wah fardhiyyah little by little. Though I may not be as good as my friends in their colleges or universities or my brothers themselves, but through the process that I've gone through, it made me see myself and let me know that if I don't follow the train of Da'wah I would just be wasting my life in this world. Stepping in the outside world introduced me to the masyarakat which has Islam just in their names and made me zealous to fill myself with taarbiyyah and introduce the proper Islam to them. But of course, going through the perfect road is not always easy. Though I seemed calm in my face but my heart ponder furiously with every moment of time that I pasted in my KMJ. A lot of things happened to me which sometimes made me feel like giving up but with Allah's help, I managed to go through it. I understand that this may be His way to test me. Being a Da'ie is not easy as the Prophet Muhammad (peace be uopn him) himself had a lot more difficulties in his life and with him as an example, Allah helped my out everytime. Thank you god. May be this is my first step of becoming the long-time waited by all the muslimin in the world to become a Khalifah and I just have to be patient and consitently go through the tarbiyah til the end of my life and develope myself in character building. All because I have dream and my dream is to become a khalifah.....
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